Peach says: I follow some awesome diabetic people on IG, to learn, to expand my mind and keep mindful that there are SO many smart, focused, disciplined people, who have gone before me and are positively #SLAYING this beast. I was diagnosed 15 April 2016. I. Have. NOT. Slayed.
YET. I do believe, however, itโs in the works. As a person who doesnโt do ANYTHING without considering things from a faith viewpoint, I have never doubted His Grace is sufficient for me. He has impressed me with this verse from the beginning, over and over, oh, so faithfully. What I doubt, for good reason is ME. I know in theory when I am weak, He is strong. But, in practice, I am not only weak, but hardheaded, willful, and can I say, I really, really LIKE my sweets? ๐ I also like my fancy coffee. My occasional Mountain Dew. (Itโs been a long, long time๐ญ๐ญ!). I also have a serious problem with self sabotage. For real! I have a tendency to take things right up to the Verrrrryyyy edge, just so I can come back from it. Itโs awful. Like, I figured out how to navigate my calories and insulin and carbs and protein to be able to have my fancy coffee (NOT from Starbucks!) on my way to work, because, hey, Iโm going to work, I โdeserveโ it! Except, I really donโt buy into that. Life isnโt about what we deserve. Itโs about grace, itโs also about hard work and good results, itโs a complicated, and yet simple combination that varies at times. I feel like itโs the dance of life. I GET to make wise and healthy choices, through His Grace at work in me, THEN I will see better results!
Lately, His new verse to me, to help me and Batman, together, get to a new place in this, is Philippians 4:13. I know, itโs everywhere in social media, so it can be annoying. But, when HE, Whose Word it is, takes the time from sustaining the Universe, to impress this verse on your heart and mind, OVER, and OVER, it takes on brand new and shiny significance. I will #listen when He speaks, when He cares enough to ๐๐ป๐๐ป point the way #forward and ๐๐ป๐๐ป #up the ๐. So, Sunday night we threw out any carbs leftover from a family 4th of July get together. And just flipped the switch cold turkey. About 2-3 weeks ago the Lord had put it on my heart, to let up, walk away from the fancy coffees, do myself a favor and quit being foolishly ‘edgy’, just because I can. Why not see how much better results I can get without that totally unnecessary thing.
Yesterday was one of my very best eating days ever, as a person fighting the sugar/insulin battle. Today is day 3 of yet another turn around the mulberry bush, to try to find Batman’s and my healthy place in eating. Today I did hit a low, but I brought it back WITH proteins and fats! NO carbs! That’s a great success! ๐๐๐๐ป๐๐ป
I don’t usually talk about this part of my life, because I’m a novice, and haven’t found my stride just yet, and I realllllly do not enjoy simple platitudes, judgy and condescending people, and people who are, (I’m sorry) talking out of their behinds! ๐คฃ๐ค๐ป๐ค๐ป๐ค ๐ซ Lol! I might not have dealt with this long, but, I have had all sorts entertaining and annoying advice given me! Can’t take it personal. It’s just people being people, bless their hearts!
I’m deciding to talk about it now, because maybe my awfulness at this, followed by His redemptive work in me through this, will help somebody. And that is worth it all!
I CAN do ALL things, THROUGH Christ who STRENGTHENS me!!